10/19/25: I don't really like my job. I feel like I have no career prospects. Applying to other jobs makes me feel absurdly inadequate. I rarely get a call back. I have only been offered a couple of jobs since I have graduated. I figure that I must be doing something wrong. Maybe my resume is lacking. Maybe I suck in interviews. Maybe its both. At the very least I wish I had some idea of what needs to be done
10/25/25: I am trying to think about what I can do in my life to increase the amont of happiness in my life. I have thought about moving to another city, not to say i've gotten offers. I don't really have any friends that would keep me in this area. There is just my family, who I sometimes feel I would appreciate more with some distance. I drive about 2.5 hours every day and I feel like if I moved the increased free time would make me a lot happier. I don't really know how much of a future I see in my current job, which makes me hesitant to move.
10/26/25: For the past couple of weeks I have kind of been having an existential crisis. I have had a deep feeling that I am running very behind in life and that if I am not careful my entire life is going to pass me by. I am stuck feeling lost and rudderless. I am not sure what I should be doing in my free time or what exactly I could do to make myself happier. When I think about things that make me happy in life, they are things that only bring a temporary happiness. Deep fulfilment and gratifaction are things that completely elude me. I don't really know what I am living for or what would make me feel really alive.